Freak
1 comment April 20th, 2008 at 09:07pm 400 views
Locked in my room. Loud in my head. Friends outside. I hear them laughing but I can not join them. I tried. Very bad. So hard to separate their voices. K, Lorena, Tess. It is Tess’ birthday. Happy bday Tess.
Makes me tired. I can feel every speck of dust in the air. Hear it. Sometimes see it. Like a million tiny lightening bolts, each giving me a tiny little sting. Freak.
Why can’t I just have fun like normal people?
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Filed under: Autism / Asperger's
Tags: life
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unrulyasides | April 21st, 2008 at 1:22 pm
may your frogs take you by the hand and sing to you softly on their lily pads in the quiet, nighttime meadow, not a soul around, only clear stars in the sky. =)
just this morning i was saying pretty much the same thing to myself. neighbor in the other duplex with the power tools, slams against walls, my agitation escalating high, wishing to the gods that i were a “normal” person and this stuff didn’t send me into such a tailspin, and why do i have to notice absolutely *every*thing?!
i think we both have supersonic radar installed in our bodies/heads, we’re probably alien experiments, put here for a purpose. aliens are at monitors up in a celestial sky, in an asynchronous orbit, checking the data feeds, making notes. they’re happy aliens, and they have a reason, but of course it makes absolutely no sense to us.
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